In less than 8 weeks my life has radically changed. I have gone from the depths of blackest despair to the glorious heights of emotional bliss of a man in love. All because I took one last chance on the whole internet relationship thing. I found my ultimate fantasy woman, someone so far out of my normal range of expectation as to be unobtainable. I opened my heart to her with my honesty and sincerity about who I am, what I am about, and where I would like to be in life. She responded with kindness and honesty. We formed a fast and quick bond that is slowly growing into a beautiful friendship that may lead to more in the near future. We both acknowledge we have our problems in the past and that affects our perceptions of the present but working together we can overcome any obstacle.
This woman is a goddess on earth, compassion, kindness, warmth, empathy, and beauty in one marvelous package. I feel blessed to have her as my only best and true friend. This amazing woman has inspired me to change my life so much for the better in just 2 months, what could I do with her by my side for a lifetime? In just 2 months she has given me the courage to deal with a toxic work situation and make it better, she has inspired me to live my life to the fullest, and I am now eating right and exercising. I am doing this on my own, not at her suggestion but as my desire to be the best possible man I can be in all ways. This amazing woman has inspired me to do so much in such a short period of time, I have went back to church, attended a catholic mass and confession, I have made peace with my inner struggle with my faith, I have become tolerant, patient, caring, and compassionate. I am trying to live by the Golden Rule. Treating others the way I wish to be treated.
This spectacular woman has given me the gift of life and hope. This is the rarest of gifts for a man alone in a cold and lonely world. The days since 12/18/08; when my world came spinning apart, have been sad and lonely with only brief moments of levity. The kinds words of strangers online and people from my past we the best I had to look forward to each day. I only attempted to date women that I thought would like me, my interest in them only a reflection of an interest in me. I now have a woman in my life I care for with all my heart and soul. I would marry her tomorrow if she would say yes but she has more wisdom than I in matters of the heart and wants to continue on the path we are on. I believe she is my one. I have felt this way before but this time maybe it is true.
