Todays is a special day for me. First blog in a long time again. I have had neither desire or energy to write. Had many ideas but they all were dropped by the time I would sit at the keyboard to bang them out. I let apathy set in and despair drive the engine. Hope was lost but I just kept going cause thats what you do. Being Saturday I did my weigh in.
It happend today. My weight was 299. I have lost 75 lbs in 9 months with diet and exercise. I cried and felt pride in myself for the first time a long time. The feelings of hate and self loathing were banished for awhile. I have not been under 300 lbs in 15 years. I had no choice in the matter really. I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and forced to change my eating habits. That combined with my Hypertension, Sleep Apnea, GERD, Gout, Orthoscopic Hypotension, and Degenerative Disc Disease is was looking at an early grave.
Having been morbidly obese the last 15-20 year has done significant damage to most of my joints on top of the occupation damage of a 13 year career as an EMT, 6 years as a CNA,3 3 years welding, and old assorted commerical driving jobs. Add in the damage from 3 on the job back injuries and 3 major motor vehicle accidents my body is in pretty rough shape.
