I no longer go by Grumpy EMT as I was forced to leave EMS and changed my posting name to Grumpy Joe. Today's blog is going to be about physical and mental well being. My physical and mental health have been in decline since 2008. My work life took a major hit then career wise and my emotional stability went into decline. My physical health was up and down as well with weight-loss and weight gain. I was forced out and fired from my EMT job in 2013 my emotional and physical health was not good at that point. I took 2 bad jobs before getting a good job working with children and families before my health finally reached the breaking point. I went out on long term disability in August of 2014 and filed for Social Security Disability in December of 2014.
My mental health has always been a problem I dealt with through denial.
I could no longer do that since I was at home every day. I started mental health counseling. I was very resistant at first but went to the one on one sessions and the group sessions as it was my only social outlet. When I was forced out of EMS I lost my entire social circle same thing when I went out on long term disability. Besides work friends I only have 3 friends and they all live a minimum of 5 hours away.
So after all my time on groups and my individual counseling sessions. I have finally found a place to be honest about my suicidal thoughts, and share about my previous attempts, my assaults, my night terrors, and my PTSD, with the flashbacks. Many days still feel like this,
Even with medication I just hope for a better tomorrow.
