Well, My Non-Exsistentent Readers sorry for my almost one-year absence.
The TANSTAAFL Blog has always been my outlet for musing. Well working for the last year I have really just not done much in the way of writing or anything. My one true friend that also has a now long resting blog suggested I start again so here we are...I will only mention her as Lumuhand.
She is the best person in the Universe. She has saved my heart and soul. It is hard to truly put into words that would be clear for someone who has never experienced a panic attack, lived with chronic depression, or faced crippling PTSD how hard day to day living can be.
There is a reason many people are drugged up to the gills and numb to the point of not feeling any emotion. I finally got the help I needed for my distress and in the process found my way to my Lighthouse Lumuhand. She has helped me more than the people in two different counseling centers I went to since 2016.
With her help and the ongoing help of another angel, I have been medication-free for 2 years. The kindness and support I receive have given me the strength to end my counseling services. I am able to stand on my own and find support from people who are interested in me as a person. Not me as an account that fills a slot.
Each day is another step forward in this journey. I know I am mostly alone but I have a few I can reach out when I need the support. That is best a person can really hope for is to be able to have at least 3 people to reach out to when in need. I think I have 3...
