The current weather really does match my mood right now. T minus six days and counting until vacation. On Jan 31 at 8 am I am leaving this desert wasteland for Gulfport, MS. Spending 10 days with on old friend if everything goes right. I am crossing my fingers that life does not go sideways and prevent me from going. What could prevent this trip? Well there is my elderly Mother I financially support and care for, last time I had a 5 day vacation planned she ended up in the hospital the night before I was scheduled to leave so that trip was cancelled. Last year I had this same trip planned and at the last minute my friend cancelled cause his ex and her family showed up at his place to stay for 2 weeks unannounced. So two days before my vacation I was left with no place to stay no money to cover the cost of hotels for that many nights.
I am a pessimist, life has kicked me in the teeth too many times to be optimistic anymore. I really don't even want to come back from vacation. I am going to do some job interviews while out there on the Gulf Coast. Its not realistic but the fantasy of having options is a pleasant one where I can dream of living a life of my choosing and not one where I am bound by a promise to my dying Father. Well thats it for today. MESSAGE ENDS
Friday, January 25, 2013
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Drama Central
What a cruddy 4 days off work. My life has more drama lately than day time TV. My best friend is a cute woman who is going through some truly horrible stuff. Family is supposed to help in your time of need, hers is doing the opposite. She moved back in with her family short term to get out of a bad situation only this turned out worse for her.
I finally sat her down when I got home from shift on Monday and had a long talk and got her to see the medical professionals she needed to see to help her deal with the situation. I did my best to frame the conversation in a manner that made it her choice but afterwards I explained to her that as my friend and someone I care deeply about she was getting help with or without her consent. She said she understood and hugged me as she cried.
She is doing better now and getting more help and guidance from the right people. I help where I can and have helped her be able to move herself and children out of her parents home to a safe place. I do love this woman and she loves me as well just I am realistic about me expectations. She has never had emotional support from anyone in the last 10 years and having someone kind and caring who places her safety and peace of mind before my material wants is something she is having a hard time accepting.
Its a sad commentary on our society when I am just being the normal decent guy my parents raised and its not the norm for people to behave decently without an agenda. I am just providing her kindness and caring for someone else who needs help and has no where to turn. I thought that was the basic precept of a just and moral society. Then again there I go thinking...
I finally sat her down when I got home from shift on Monday and had a long talk and got her to see the medical professionals she needed to see to help her deal with the situation. I did my best to frame the conversation in a manner that made it her choice but afterwards I explained to her that as my friend and someone I care deeply about she was getting help with or without her consent. She said she understood and hugged me as she cried.
She is doing better now and getting more help and guidance from the right people. I help where I can and have helped her be able to move herself and children out of her parents home to a safe place. I do love this woman and she loves me as well just I am realistic about me expectations. She has never had emotional support from anyone in the last 10 years and having someone kind and caring who places her safety and peace of mind before my material wants is something she is having a hard time accepting.
Its a sad commentary on our society when I am just being the normal decent guy my parents raised and its not the norm for people to behave decently without an agenda. I am just providing her kindness and caring for someone else who needs help and has no where to turn. I thought that was the basic precept of a just and moral society. Then again there I go thinking...
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Troubles, yeah I have a few
Well Dear readers who ever you are time for another installment of the rant/whinefest that is this blog with the very cool Heinlein title in the header.
Todays subject is shit. I have been fed a double helping of it the last few days. At work I was infected with the strep virus by an flaming prick who also works for the ambulance. I got screwed over on my sick pay this pay period. Whole another rant on the unethical treatment of white employees of tribal organizations. Needless to say my ass was not happy when I finally arrived back to the house this morning after shift. Then I am informed by my elderly mother she ended up in the Emergency Room while I was gone on shift for a sinus infection/tooth infection. But did not want to worry me while I was gone at work 60 miles away.
Shit Piss fuck and other words. Monday I dealt with the ignorance that runs the tribal payroll. I am then informed that my sort of girl friend also had a medical incident while I was at work where she was sent home from work and would not be working today as well. FUCK me running. I was dumb enough to help her out getting into a new vehicle and adding her to my insurance now she misses two days of work. Plus she will not respond to me about the whole situation when I call and text her. I am done with other people. Time for me to become a hermit and live in a fucking cave.
Todays subject is shit. I have been fed a double helping of it the last few days. At work I was infected with the strep virus by an flaming prick who also works for the ambulance. I got screwed over on my sick pay this pay period. Whole another rant on the unethical treatment of white employees of tribal organizations. Needless to say my ass was not happy when I finally arrived back to the house this morning after shift. Then I am informed by my elderly mother she ended up in the Emergency Room while I was gone on shift for a sinus infection/tooth infection. But did not want to worry me while I was gone at work 60 miles away.
Shit Piss fuck and other words. Monday I dealt with the ignorance that runs the tribal payroll. I am then informed that my sort of girl friend also had a medical incident while I was at work where she was sent home from work and would not be working today as well. FUCK me running. I was dumb enough to help her out getting into a new vehicle and adding her to my insurance now she misses two days of work. Plus she will not respond to me about the whole situation when I call and text her. I am done with other people. Time for me to become a hermit and live in a fucking cave.
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