The current weather really does match my mood right now. T minus six days and counting until vacation. On Jan 31 at 8 am I am leaving this desert wasteland for Gulfport, MS. Spending 10 days with on old friend if everything goes right. I am crossing my fingers that life does not go sideways and prevent me from going. What could prevent this trip? Well there is my elderly Mother I financially support and care for, last time I had a 5 day vacation planned she ended up in the hospital the night before I was scheduled to leave so that trip was cancelled. Last year I had this same trip planned and at the last minute my friend cancelled cause his ex and her family showed up at his place to stay for 2 weeks unannounced. So two days before my vacation I was left with no place to stay no money to cover the cost of hotels for that many nights.
I am a pessimist, life has kicked me in the teeth too many times to be optimistic anymore. I really don't even want to come back from vacation. I am going to do some job interviews while out there on the Gulf Coast. Its not realistic but the fantasy of having options is a pleasant one where I can dream of living a life of my choosing and not one where I am bound by a promise to my dying Father. Well thats it for today. MESSAGE ENDS
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