Another Sunday here in the High Desert in Mohave County. Weather is getting cool for the natives of AZ but just right for this Minnesota Farmboy. O for some real lasting snow and double digit negative degree windchill. That would bring a smile to me face. Yes I know I ain't right.
Yesterday was the first day of my four days off after a mild shift on the funbus. I had a commitment to one female friend to provide transport for her to work until I could pickup her car at the shop. Same car I helped her purchase. Stop rolling your eyes I am not her sugar daddy. She is a good person who has hit a really bad stretch. Been there myself and was helped in this same way by a close friend who did these same things for me almost 20 years ago. Karma is more than just a hippie slogan.
I had to drive from my job to her house and then to her work. Basically when I dropped her off 5 minutes late(Not my fault ass-clowns on the shift after me could not show up if there lives depended on it on fucking time ever)Returned home and on the trip back another female friend called in a panic about her lady bits and excessive abnormal bleeding. This woman is an ex of mine. Long story stupid chick. So after giving her my Emergency Medical Technician perspective on the problem and her choices I am now committed to picking this chick up at her place as her ghetto glider would not handle the trip to the ER.
So I got to spend 4 hours with a neurotic self involved judgmental woman in the ER. She wanted the magic pixie dust everyone thinks they will get by going to the ER. She was given antibiotics and told to go she her ob/gyn. Same thing I told her 4 hours prior. I drop her off, add gas to my car to go get my friend at work. Take her back to her car, get my hug good night, and go home alone.
Annoyed, lonely, and horny. Ugh, that is my life right now. Service to others for all the good it actually does me. I know that being a good person is supposed to be it's own reward but come on...at what point will I get to have the happiness I so badly want. I have a best friend that I really need in the first woman.
I just get frustrated going through life eternally alone. I am the one others depend on, fine with that but there are days I need to lean on someone. Guess the correct Catholic answer would be to lean on Jesus but someone here and now would really help me mental state. MESSAGE ENDS
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